Late

Well, this is quite late. I have about 6 min until it will technically be tomorrow when I post this. I felt the desire to go for a walk though and if I don't it will plague me until I do. It was not a good walk if anyone was curious.

So today has been interesting. I took a nap today for the first time in a long time. A real nap! It felt pretty good to actually achieve my plans for a nap. Usually they are waylaid by other things. It was cut short, however by cutting grass of my grandmothers yard, which was quite simple. In other news for today I saw Ret take the EU Blizzard invitational. Sad for Naniwa, he was so unhappy that he got second, even if he gets to go to Blizzcon. He is a winner, wants the gold. Always.

So I got into a fight with my friend last night. I don't know if I am entirely over it. I am enough so to not be mad, well, in general a least. I am still quite mad at myself. I feel my anger got a little out of hand and I feel bad about it. I hate losing control. I lash out like an idiot and try to hit the weakest spots I can find. I don't think I did this last night...but I don't know for sure. Today hasn't improved things much. For most of the day I was shunted to the wayside. I can't be angry at her for this though, as I am the one that brought it about. I just wish I could go back and change a few things. It was SO close to being fine. So very close. But our flaw of never being able to end calls quickly came back and haunted me. Towards the end of the day things were improved, though that might be because she got tired and sort of went into a sleepy texting stage. All I know is that I hope this blows over soon.

So i move to Boone it twoish days. Wednesday. I'm excited...also, it's tomorrow. Darn.

Time

I really wish there was more than 24 hours in a day, or that I didn't have to sleep. Sleep is one of the most annoying things in my life. I really wish that I didn't have to do it. It eats up way to much of my time. The only time I have ever enjoyed sleep is when I have had the warm body of someone I care about with me. Otherwise I just find it pointless. What this really boils down to is I feel like I don't have enough time during the day to do everything I want to do. Part of this stems from a desire to keep the people around me happy with me. I don't want my friend, over seas at the moment, to hate me because I can't play StarCraft with him. So I try to play a little. But I don't want my mother to get mad at me for playing StarCraft at four in the afternoon. If I try to just please my friend I get stressed from my mother, even if she isn't trying to do anything to bring this about, and I play terribly. If I just please my mother, my friend is sad and I feel bad for him trying so hard to find a time for us to play at all, or ever talk. Trying to do both as i did today means I feel bad to both parties and I play terribly.  And then I get on here and complain about time. Gah.

Anyway, tomorrow is looking awesome. Early work to most likely mowing my grandmothers yard to clothes shopping. I detest shopping for myself with people. Especially clothes. I have no fashion sense at all. I have no clue how to dress myself; I ware clothes that all just go together.

I am making my self more angry by writing this. I need to just stop. Who needs plans anyway.

It's Funny...

You used to get mad at me when I wasn't in a talking mood and I just wanted to disappear. You used to get scared when I would go away for short spells of time. You would get so mad and worried. And now here you are, too depressed to talk. Just took a shower and just sat alone. Am I mad? Only at the injustice. But I am quite sad. I have been hoping to actually talk to you for days now. I'm sure we'll get around to it eventually. Eventually...

On a much brighter note, I worked 5 hours on my day off! That is a maximum paid work day for me! but I did it for free! Complaining about lack of pay aside; it was an awesome time. I don't get to work with a scissor lift very often (not a fork lift like I mistakenly called it today...I don't know why i always get them confused). We moved some pretty decent sized speakers around a corner and over about 20 feet. On a broken lift, it didn't want to stay up in the air. I t would slowly sink as me and my father worked. We never noticed it falling, we would just notice that things got harder to reach and then realize that we had slipped down a good 18 inches. (This is a story that I was hoping to tell you...)

I have fully abandoned my plans for Harry Potter, I could finish the books in time, but I would have to stop almost everything else, and I would like to maybe see some people before I leave. Oh well, I feel this most getting more and more depressing so I'm going to just end it here.

Bacula

What an evil thing Bacula is. At the moment it is causing me great troubles at work. Though technically it is OpenSuse that has been causing me my woes. However, I would never have to work with such OS IF Bacula was being updated for CentOs. Hopefully this 8th install will be the install that works...oh and the drive won't sound like a herd of elephants.

So i slept a bit later today than  i was hoping. I was trying to get up at a decent hour. I almost got up at 10:30, but decided to turn over and sleep for a little while more. Next thing i know it is 2:00 and I am jumping out of bed cursing myself for sleeping so late. Also, a friend was in a dream of mine. I told her most of it, but failed to mention the part about us discussion what my mother most fears with me and her. It was a very weird dream and has made me scratch my head a great deal as I have no idea where it came from at all!

Anyway, moving day is getting closer. The tenth is a date that is LOOMING over me. Once i arrive I'm sure it won't be as horrid as I am thinking. Still, these are the type of things I worry about; anything that requires a social interaction. I'm social on the internet. Where i can shy away from my awkward nature. Oh Damn, I just remembered I need to write people letters...

Title to Come

So, i am beginning to give up on finishing Harry Potter before i leave for Boone. I have taken up a new hobby as of lately and it is eating up a lot of my time. Marvel vs Capcom 3! After EVO I had been itching to try it and I already owned it I saw no reason not to attempt to play. That game is so crazy I can say with complete certainty that I am horrible at that game. I use almost the same team as Justin Wong with Akuma and Wolverine, but I have traded out his tank of She-Hulk for Dante. I can hit a few of their moves and some combos but never when i need to hit them. I can still beat my brother, but he also hasn't but as much into the game as I have. He doesn't even have a team together yet. Hopefully this will no stop me from finishing, though it will hinder me for sure.

Another thing on the menu is another blog. Not mine, but a friend's. He is a novice cuber, which I feel would be his words as to me he is pretty good at it. Either way check out his cube-tastic blog if you are curious about cubing, or if you just wan to read some interesting words.

Also, sadly i was 85 texts into a conversation before I realized that I was texting someone different than i though i was. The problem being that I know two people by the same first name and last initial, which was all that was in my phone. I feel like a complete idiot, especially since I have done this before with a different friend of mine, but this was even worse as it was over facebook which has pictures. Hopefully he will be none the wiser and as I am sure (hopefully) that he doesn't read this blog as I have not told many people of it's creation. But now it is time to read and then sleep.

Alone

Usually a not so happy thing, alone to me at the moment is a wishing word. Tuesdays are usually a day I can wake up late and enjoy the empty house for awhile before I start my day. Not today however, my brother didn't have work, which wasn't really the main problem. The main problem was that my car has been acting up and my father was over here to help fix it. We both have Tuesdays off. I work with my father and I see him all the time for great lengths of time during the day so when he is here as soon as I wake up asking me to start working on the car it makes me angsty. I don't function as well. And I know that it is crazy as he is helping me fix my car, but i would just like a SMALL amount of time alone.

Anywho, enough complaining for one day. I got checks today in the mail! I feel so grown up. I've never had them before. I doubt I will use them that much as I can send checks out online thanks to my amazing credit union Allegacy! Still, it is always good to have a back up plan.

I finished the third Harry Potter book today. I feel as if I am slowing down. I need to pick up speed again. I'm leaving next wednesday, and if I want to finish by then I have a good bit or reading to do! Speaking of which, I'm going to close this down and go start reading more.

Grammar Nazi

I just got back from hanging out with my friend who is a giant Grammar Nazi. Upon reading my blog he started finding numerous mistakes that i have made. I have already fixed the ones that have been pointed out to me, but it saddens me that he could find so many so quickly. Regardless it was a wonderful evening full of cards, coffee, Sheetz food, and rubix cubes! I do hope I get to see him one last time before I head back up to Boone. It's getting close to when it's time for me to move into my apartment. I'm quite excited.

MLG and EVO were amazing. None of the players i wanted to win won though. Not even close. Though EG.Jwong did make it to top 3 in Marvel vs Capcom 3. Watching the finals of MvC3 was still amazing, however. PR Rog made some AMAZING comebacks. It's sad that he lost to Viscant. I would love to have seen him win it all after that amazing match reset. Street Fighter 4: Arcade Edition was also very awesome. Seeing Brokentier Latif fight all the way back from losers to have a rematch with Fuudo was great. Even if Fuudo did make easy work of him. Latif's defeat of Tokido, Poongko, and most importantly Daigo is epic enough for him. He played very well.

MLG didn't offer me as much sadly. Though Tyler beating a top Korean is amazing. It's a pity he fell way down after that point. All of my people did. Leaving only Koreans in the top slots. The finals were still awesome to watch, though I enjoyed the Boxer v MMA match the best. master and apprentice facing off to see who would go to the finals was amazing. Sad Boxer didn't make it, but third is not bad. especially with everyone saying that he just wasn't going to amount to anything anymore. Still glad that MvP took a win though. It's nice to see new faces. Just wish it was a foreigner (which in StarCraft means non-korean).

All in all a great weekend, now it is time to return to Harry Potter.