Ehh

I am not really feeling inspired to write at the moment. I don't really have anything to say. And I am kinda just annoyed at the world. Eh...maybe tomorrow...


(worst post ever)

Spring Awakening

A few weeks ago I went to watch my friend Sam in a musical. I didn't blog about it then because, well, for one, I am a terrible blogger. I almost never blog when I should. I also was quite busy that night. So I forgot. I should have. It was amazing. Thankfully, I was reminded of how awesome it was thanks to "The Song of Purple Summer" coming on my iPod while I was doing a set up. Sam's show was amazing. It was much darker than the first one that I saw. It brought me to tears. I wasn't ready for it. I don't know if will ever have as much reaction to that play as I did tho this particular showing. Everyone there did a great job. I think I should have more. But my brain is tired. That happens a lot. It makes me feel like a busy man though. More post later probably.

Trim Tuesday

It's Tuesday! I am currently having a really hard time...with time. I didn't realize what day it was in august, It's Matt's birthday ! I really need to talk to him...He still doesn't know what happened when I went to Michigan. And he is privileged to more details than most! I am kinda dying wanting to tell someone allll of it! Hopefully soon. I also hope he has an awesome birthday. I am sure he will. His girlfriend is pretty awesome. 

Tuesday is also the day that I trim my beard. Set into place by the beautiful Jacquelynn. I wanted to trim it when i jumped in the shower earlier, but decided I would wait for Tuesday. While in the shower I realized it was Tuesday. AND that all my towels were in the washer and dryer. Except for a tiny hand towel. it did an admirable job, but it is off to the washer for it again. 

Speaking of washing. I have been doing laundry for the past two days. I have been in serious clean mode. I don't think my room has been this clean in many months. There is nothing out of place...or there wasn't last night. Now there is because I am washing my sheets, so a few things are still on the ground because of that. BUT once I get done with all my laundry, I will have it right as rain again. Having my room this clean reminds me of what little I own. My room echos. I am okay with this though. It makes it easier to move. Not that i move around often. But I plan on making a few moves in the coming year. Two really. To Chicago and back. 

My whole internship plan makes me really nervous. There is almost NO room for error. I want to live in Chicago. Which already limits my chances since some of the firms that recruit at my school are local. And if I don't make it, I would still really like an internship. But I would then be promised to them for 2 years. I don't know if I would mind that too much, But Jacquelynn might. My future, at the moment and hopefully for all moments in the future, is very connected to hers. Or at least I want it to be. We both have dreams of living near Chicago. I wouldn't want to make her abandon her dream. But I wouldn't want to lose her as well. When I think about it a lot. It scares me quite a bit. I pray that everything works out well. I am going to do my best to make all the firms like me. Then, hopefully, I will make it to Chicago. And grad school. It's a happy dream when it all works out.

TOPIC SHIFT! I am really looking forward to the new Madded game. I am not a huge football fan. I don't really watch any sports. Ever. I don't really have to free time to do all the stuff I want to do anyway. So sports watching never makes it up there. That being said, I do love playing Madden with my brother and company. It is one of the most fun experiences I have had on xbox live since the days where I played Gears of War every night. It stopped halfway through the year with Madden 12, thanks to TJ no longer having xbox live. BUT now 13 is coming out. I am very excited. I sold 5 games I was never going to play back to GameStop yesterday. I put it all towards the new madden, now I need less than 30 dollars to finish the purchase. That will be no problem at all! Especially since my next check is going to be pretty awesome. As will, hopefully, the check after that. the one for the next upcoming weeks will be amazing. I am excited about money. And with money comes easy plane tickets. And with that Comes Jacquelynn. The Best plan.

Tonight is going to be a fun night. After talking to Jacquelynn, If we do. She is sick and needs her sleepies. I am going to try to put her to bed earlier than usual. Anyway, after that I am going to play some Gears of War with my brother and Ryan. We are going to get our asses kicked. But it will be a lot of fun. I love that game. I don't really know what else I want to say today. I think I should try to blog more often. Remind me tomorrow Jacquelynn.

Promised post

So I promised that I would post today. And today seems like a really bad day to break that promise. Jacquelynn spent most of the day having tests done to see why she is sick. Nothing has been conclusive yet. Which makes it even worse. I was a little worried about her today. It is times like these that really shows how much it sucks to be far away. When you are happy, it is sad because you can't be close. When you have some desires, it is sad because satisfaction just can't be had. BUT when the one you love is in a hospital and you are waiting 600 miles away just to hear what is happening at the moment. I want to be there to help take care of her. She was so sad looking when we skyped. I would love to make her soup and tuck her into bed, and rub her head while she falls asleep. She deserves to be babied. Hopefully tomorrow there will be answers.

So I am too tired to finish blogging. Today was a bit stressful on my mind. I'll blog again tomorrow....remind me.


P.S. I knew what oncology was...I Just wished I was wrong...that word makes me nervous.